I've got a crush on you
Forgive me for being blunt, but I realized I have a crush on someone recently. Let me get it out of the way that I'm not going to pursue it, and I don't expect anything to actually come of it, but it's a good, nostalgic feeling. I feel like I'm back in high school, replete with the requisite passing of notes, "I like/don't like you" checkboxes, and questions of "Do you like him/her?" vs. "Do you like like him/her?"
... Ok so maybe not so much on the note passing... or the checkboxes, or really even the questioning, but the fact remains, that having a crush on someone is something I haven't had in a while, and its alright with me, even though it is in this specific case one of those unobtainable occurences. It's a fun thing to talk about though, with the whole butterflies, and heart beating faster, and sweaty palms feeling.
... Ok so maybe not so much on the sweaty palms, or the butterflies, but I coulda swore one time my heart was beating faster then regular and I was coincidentally thinking about her. It's fun to idly daydream and wonder how things could be in the future, even if in all likelihood they won't turn out that way. I'm convinced that the ability to dream is one of the things that makes humans such unique creatures.
I'm not too beat up or depressed about the unachievability of the situation though, I'm a realist, I understand what is and isn't within my reach, and like I've said before, I'm smart enough to realize that I'm twenty, and I'm stupid. I don't plan on making the same mistakes that a lot of individuals a few years older then me have made though, and I can instead learn from their pitfalls without falling into my own.
One of the things I love about my parents is the absolute amount of faith they put in me... though I'm sure there have been occasions where that faith was a little bit misplaced. My dad always tells me that I'm smart enough to make socially-charged decisions here better than he can, so it frequently falls on me to decide what to do. I think I've done pretty well so far, no baby mama drama here... Or is there?
Ok who the hell am I kidding, no, none of that, at all. Either way, how often is it that you meet someone that seems to have so much in common with you? It's not every day you meet someone else who stays up late at night watching Iron Chef.
... Ok so maybe not so much on the note passing... or the checkboxes, or really even the questioning, but the fact remains, that having a crush on someone is something I haven't had in a while, and its alright with me, even though it is in this specific case one of those unobtainable occurences. It's a fun thing to talk about though, with the whole butterflies, and heart beating faster, and sweaty palms feeling.
... Ok so maybe not so much on the sweaty palms, or the butterflies, but I coulda swore one time my heart was beating faster then regular and I was coincidentally thinking about her. It's fun to idly daydream and wonder how things could be in the future, even if in all likelihood they won't turn out that way. I'm convinced that the ability to dream is one of the things that makes humans such unique creatures.
I'm not too beat up or depressed about the unachievability of the situation though, I'm a realist, I understand what is and isn't within my reach, and like I've said before, I'm smart enough to realize that I'm twenty, and I'm stupid. I don't plan on making the same mistakes that a lot of individuals a few years older then me have made though, and I can instead learn from their pitfalls without falling into my own.
One of the things I love about my parents is the absolute amount of faith they put in me... though I'm sure there have been occasions where that faith was a little bit misplaced. My dad always tells me that I'm smart enough to make socially-charged decisions here better than he can, so it frequently falls on me to decide what to do. I think I've done pretty well so far, no baby mama drama here... Or is there?
Ok who the hell am I kidding, no, none of that, at all. Either way, how often is it that you meet someone that seems to have so much in common with you? It's not every day you meet someone else who stays up late at night watching Iron Chef.
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