I don't feel the way I've ever felt
I know, gonna smile and not get worried. I try but it shows. Two posts in a row? What the heck, this really is a rather unproductive week huh? I have the feeling this'll be one of the more random blogs with no major focus, as I'm thinking about a lot of things right now, as everyone always does when they don't have much going on.
Coming back to what I had said about apathy a few posts back, a few more examples of that showed up recently. Most notably, there's been a cause that has been going year long, and none of these people exhibited any sort of effort towards helping it, but suddenly within the last week there's been a massive influx of people interested in the cause. Now on the surface one would think I'd be ecstatic that there are suddenly so many interested, seemingly caring individuals, but for a lot of them it seems like a farce. I know it's probably not good to make judgments like that, so of course I would never approach these people and tell them so, but I'm really concerned as to what these people will do if they're granted the responsibilities they're currently suddenly seeking, even though for the greater part of the year they fell into the category of people I was talking about about being apathetic, and unwilling to consciously listen to what was being said to them.
In the biggest news that I've gotten for a while, a girl told me she liked me today. DUN DUN DUN. Sounds like high school doesn't it? OMG she likes me. It's a bit more complex then that, but this is a big deal for me, because it's not something that ever happens, not to me at least. It's happened before, but it's different when its from someone that you actually care about in return, vs. that random white high schooler girl who gets nothing from you but a weird sideways glance and a "were you talking to the right person?" I don't quite know where it'll go, but I wouldn't handle such a thing in any way but the most responsible. dunt werry ma, ya raised yur kid gud. I'm really happy and thankful that something like this happened when I was 20, instead of when I was 17 or younger, because though I've said before that 20 isn't the smartest age, it does at least allow me a degree of reality check that a 17 year old might not have. With that said I won't either discount this and brush it off, nor will I completely embrace it. Dangerous waters indeed.
The other small business I'd like to wrap up is an update on the whole thinking too much thing. It really is true that the less you have going on, the more you spend thinking. Similar to Matilda, that energy has to go somewhere, though I haven't lifted many spoons today. There needs to be healthy outlets for that excess energy, something that I'm sometimes lacking, even though people put suggestions to me on what do with idle time. I know, idle time, bad bad bad, that point doesn't need to be reinforced, But a man's thoughts shouldn't make him crazy, should it? A man left alone with nothing but his thoughts should remain healthy shouldn't he? I like thinking... I think. But there's gotta be a limit, moderation in everything after all. I think thats one of the best pieces of advice to live by: Moderation in everything. Those words are so true in my mind that I really can't over emphasize it. Moderation in religion, moderation in work, in play, in studies, in social life, in everything. I guess this post wasn't as random as I wanted it to be. I had more on my mind when I started writing... but I got up at one point to go talk to someone, and came back and forgot the rest. Now I'm sitting at grand central station waiting for my train of thought to catch up. Who caught that? AND who caught the Jimmy Eat World reference at the start? Damn Jimmy Eat World kicks ass.
Coming back to what I had said about apathy a few posts back, a few more examples of that showed up recently. Most notably, there's been a cause that has been going year long, and none of these people exhibited any sort of effort towards helping it, but suddenly within the last week there's been a massive influx of people interested in the cause. Now on the surface one would think I'd be ecstatic that there are suddenly so many interested, seemingly caring individuals, but for a lot of them it seems like a farce. I know it's probably not good to make judgments like that, so of course I would never approach these people and tell them so, but I'm really concerned as to what these people will do if they're granted the responsibilities they're currently suddenly seeking, even though for the greater part of the year they fell into the category of people I was talking about about being apathetic, and unwilling to consciously listen to what was being said to them.
In the biggest news that I've gotten for a while, a girl told me she liked me today. DUN DUN DUN. Sounds like high school doesn't it? OMG she likes me. It's a bit more complex then that, but this is a big deal for me, because it's not something that ever happens, not to me at least. It's happened before, but it's different when its from someone that you actually care about in return, vs. that random white high schooler girl who gets nothing from you but a weird sideways glance and a "were you talking to the right person?" I don't quite know where it'll go, but I wouldn't handle such a thing in any way but the most responsible. dunt werry ma, ya raised yur kid gud. I'm really happy and thankful that something like this happened when I was 20, instead of when I was 17 or younger, because though I've said before that 20 isn't the smartest age, it does at least allow me a degree of reality check that a 17 year old might not have. With that said I won't either discount this and brush it off, nor will I completely embrace it. Dangerous waters indeed.
The other small business I'd like to wrap up is an update on the whole thinking too much thing. It really is true that the less you have going on, the more you spend thinking. Similar to Matilda, that energy has to go somewhere, though I haven't lifted many spoons today. There needs to be healthy outlets for that excess energy, something that I'm sometimes lacking, even though people put suggestions to me on what do with idle time. I know, idle time, bad bad bad, that point doesn't need to be reinforced, But a man's thoughts shouldn't make him crazy, should it? A man left alone with nothing but his thoughts should remain healthy shouldn't he? I like thinking... I think. But there's gotta be a limit, moderation in everything after all. I think thats one of the best pieces of advice to live by: Moderation in everything. Those words are so true in my mind that I really can't over emphasize it. Moderation in religion, moderation in work, in play, in studies, in social life, in everything. I guess this post wasn't as random as I wanted it to be. I had more on my mind when I started writing... but I got up at one point to go talk to someone, and came back and forgot the rest. Now I'm sitting at grand central station waiting for my train of thought to catch up. Who caught that? AND who caught the Jimmy Eat World reference at the start? Damn Jimmy Eat World kicks ass.
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